Posted by eirene83 at 10:25 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.

Rest in peace is a message meant for the living...

But it's so hard to do.

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Posted by eirene83 at 10:23 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.

Would I have done things differently if I knew then what I know now?

And would it have been worth it?

I know that this is for the best... but it doesn't make accepting it any easier.

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Posted by eirene83 at 10:21 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.

This is all there is left.

And we'll let you rest somewhere peaceful forever.

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Posted by eirene83 at 10:14 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.

I regret that I never told you so much.

And for my own selfish reasons, I wish I could just turn back time and do things differently...

But I know that things are better this way...

But I really just regret it so much.

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Posted by eirene83 at 10:04 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.

Going to all the old places hurt. It reminds me of all the times we went there and now we'll never be able to see all the new shops and changes together.

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Posted by eirene83 at 10:02 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.

I miss you...

There's so much I wanted to tell you but never got around to saying and it hurts to think I can't say them to you anymore.

Even if I did go see you and talk to you, it's just never going to be the same anymore.

It hurts. And I miss you.

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Posted by eirene83 at 03:00 PM on April 10, 2008 in Personal.

There are things and incidents that occur over the period of a year that sticks with you and well, today I truly feel 25.

I'll always remember this date for the rest of my life. The incident today... It's like something that's only supposed to happen in the movies; something that you watch on TV... Not have it happen to you. Because when it does happen, it just feels surreal.

I don't want it to be real. Because as contradictory as it may sound, I have accepted it but I just don't want it to be real. And I still want to wake up from it all and think it's just a dream.

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Posted by eirene83 at 01:45 PM on April 4, 2008.

I wonder if I'm the only person who uses 'Mom' rather than 'Mum'...

I've never quite liked spelling it with a "u"... Somehow it doesn't quite warm to the heart as compared to saying mom. But it seems like rather more people tend to use 'mum' rather than 'mom' so sometimes it makes me wonder if that's actually the correct spelling for it or whether if it's just individual preference.

Besides, 'mum' just reminds me of the saying 'keeping mum' rather than mother figure.

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