September 24, 2008

6 Months

Posted by eirene83 at 11:33 PM on September 24, 2008 in Personal.

It's been nearly half a year now... It doesn't feel like it was that long ago. But it actually has been 6 months since I've last heard my mom's voice and seen her face. It doesn't seem like it was that long... I guess we've just all gotten into the routine of going to work, coming back, making sure the house is clean and willing the weekend away so we can just all get back to work and not have to face the house without her in it.

Not exactly living per se... Just coping one day at a time. And I think that's the best we can manage because there isn't actually any way we can 'get over this' like a friend of mine told me to do. I just feel somewhat insulted everytime that person tells me to move on, my mom's in a better place, just go out and do something. Maybe it's that simple for him since he's not even close to his parents... but for me, I feel offended.

The pain is there, deep inside. It doesn't hurt if I don't poke at it but I know it's there... And I know it won't ever go away. And when I think of how my mom asked us to let her come home when she was in the hospital, I never once thought I would be bringing her back in a coffin. And that tears me inside.

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