Entries for April, 2008
April 1, 2008
He Gives Me Rashes
Posted by eirene83 at 12:43 PM on April 1, 2008.
After observing for a while and noting down the frequency, I think I can safely come to this conclusion.
I am allergic... To my boss.
No joke, really.
My colleagues always ask me why my skin is so red or why I'm scratching my face. Even my mom always ask me why my face is so red in the morning before going to work. But during the entire time my boss was away, not a problem. Face was clear, blemish-free and totally rash free
The minute he walked in yesterday, within seconds... I was already scratching the side of my face. Without even having gone near him. Before that, no problem. And now this morning, my skin had these little red bumps on it like a rash.
I wonder if that's a legitimate excuse for quitting, "I'm sorry sir but I can't work here anymore because I'm allergic to you and you give me a rash." 
April 2, 2008
Posted by eirene83 at 05:46 PM on April 2, 2008.
A case worth RM60 million and you're entrusting it to a pupil in chambers?
And threaten the pupil with something if the Judges screw you when you appear before them with work done by a pupil?
Bravo, way to encourage confidence.
Does anyone still find it curious why I'm under so much stress working here and can't wait to leave?
Posted by eirene83 at 11:11 PM on April 2, 2008.
Simple is just another word for plain.
April 3, 2008
I Wanna Go Home
Posted by eirene83 at 12:32 PM on April 3, 2008.
Today just isn't my day.
First of all, I left the house a bit later than usual but could have still gotten to the office on time. Except the monorail I was on experienced 'technical difficulties' just 2 stations later.
We all had to get off and wait for the next train... That's like one whole trainload of people there... So of course, the next train that came was almost completely packed and with my train's people trying to push in as well, the situation was really ugly.
Same with the train after that. Completely packed and more people trying to be sardines.
Third train of course just had to be not in service.
By the time the fourth train came, I was wondering why I had been so stupid standing there when I could have crossed to the opposite platform, taken the train back to the terminal and head back. Just 2 stations, guaranteed a seat and no pushing and squeezing and definitely didn't have to wait for so many different trains to pass me by.
Thank goodness gracious, the 5th and final train was almost practically empty either because there's no one left at the terminal or maybe management decided to send out an extra train to help remedy the situation.
I knew I should had taken the car this morning...
April 4, 2008
Posted by eirene83 at 01:45 PM on April 4, 2008.
I wonder if I'm the only person who uses 'Mom' rather than 'Mum'...
I've never quite liked spelling it with a "u"... Somehow it doesn't quite warm to the heart as compared to saying mom. But it seems like rather more people tend to use 'mum' rather than 'mom' so sometimes it makes me wonder if that's actually the correct spelling for it or whether if it's just individual preference.
Besides, 'mum' just reminds me of the saying 'keeping mum' rather than mother figure. 
April 10, 2008
050408
Posted by eirene83 at 03:00 PM on April 10, 2008 in Personal.
There are things and incidents that occur over the period of a year that sticks with you and well, today I truly feel 25.
I'll always remember this date for the rest of my life. The incident today... It's like something that's only supposed to happen in the movies; something that you watch on TV... Not have it happen to you. Because when it does happen, it just feels surreal.
I don't want it to be real. Because as contradictory as it may sound, I have accepted it but I just don't want it to be real. And I still want to wake up from it all and think it's just a dream.
April 14, 2008
Posted by eirene83 at 10:02 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
I miss you...
There's so much I wanted to tell you but never got around to saying and it hurts to think I can't say them to you anymore.
Even if I did go see you and talk to you, it's just never going to be the same anymore.
It hurts. And I miss you.
Posted by eirene83 at 10:04 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
Going to all the old places hurt. It reminds me of all the times we went there and now we'll never be able to see all the new shops and changes together.
Posted by eirene83 at 10:14 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
I regret that I never told you so much.
And for my own selfish reasons, I wish I could just turn back time and do things differently...
But I know that things are better this way...
But I really just regret it so much.
Posted by eirene83 at 10:21 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
This is all there is left.
And we'll let you rest somewhere peaceful forever.
Posted by eirene83 at 10:23 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
Would I have done things differently if I knew then what I know now?
And would it have been worth it?
I know that this is for the best... but it doesn't make accepting it any easier.
Posted by eirene83 at 10:25 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
Rest in peace is a message meant for the living...
But it's so hard to do.
Posted by eirene83 at 11:28 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
Today was the last day ever I'll get to spend with you. The thought of you there and never coming back still hurts. I miss you. You've always complained and asked us to take you home. Every time. And every time we'd agree and try our best to get you home.
I just never ever once thought I would have to bring you home this way. Not this soon.
I just want to spend every possible second with you... And tonight, I want to stay awake with you as long as possible and if I have to go to sleep, to wake up as fast as possible. Because after tonight, there will never be another time when we'll be sleeping under the same roof.
I Miss You
Posted by eirene83 at 11:34 AM on April 14, 2008 in Music - Songs & Lyrics, Personal.
You can spend your whole life building something from nothing
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway
You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway
God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway, I do it anyway
This world's gone crazy and it's hard to believe that tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway
You can love someone with all your heart, for all the right reasons, and in a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway
You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in that tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway, sing it anyway
I sing, I dream, I love, anyway.
Posted by eirene83 at 11:35 AM on April 14, 2008 in Personal.
Are you sleeping peacefully now wherever you are? Or are you being your old self and getting involved in activities?
There wasn't many people around today but I think you would have been happy to see them there. I like to think of you being set free and flying wherever you want to go, wherever your next path lies.
And strangely, we all feel the better for today because it feels as though everything has already been washed clean by the sea and that you're finally free from everything.