Entries for October, 2006
October 2, 2006
Full circle
Posted by eirene83 at 04:49 AM on October 2, 2006.
I find that when I'm left alone to my own devices for dinner, I tend to up in OU area, rather than Mid Valley... Possibly because MV's the spot of choice on most days when shopping needs to be done...
I've always enjoyed being on my own... Lately, more so than ever since my tendencies to brood/space out have been on the rise. Eating is a less stressful process as well, that way.
On the way home, I saw... and realised something that startled me again. Well, in the mood of current apathy, startled was more like mild surprise. The roads out of OU was massively jammed... Until I looked towards the New Wing side, and realised that the Euro Funfair was back.
Another thing that reinforced the fact, that yes, it's truly been a year. Hmmm, things have come and gone; changed and changed again... and I seem to have ended up in exactly the same place where I started... Just like nothing's changed, despite everything that I've gone through the past year. One full circle. It's been said that lessons keep repeating themselves until we learn from them...
What is it that I apparently haven't absorbed from the lessons the past 11 months or so?
Wednesday's child
Posted by eirene83 at 08:45 PM on October 2, 2006 in Library.
I have always meant to go look for the entire poem, but every time I'm online, it slips my mind... (Which does not say very good things about my memory, considering the number of times I come online...)
But I've finally remembered, and found it... and here it is:
Monday's child is fair of face,
Tuesday's child is full of grace,
Wednesday's child is full of woe,
Thursday's child has far to go,
Friday's child is loving and giving,
Saturday's child works hard for a living,
And the child that is born on the Sabbath day
Is bonny and blithe, and good and gay.
Somehow the only line that stuck in my head (and apparently, everyone else's) is: Wednesday's child, full of woe... So much so that the poem itself is known as Wednesday's Child.
Apparently, the poem was meant to introduce the different days of the week to a child... But although well-known, it's not very popular and probably why the only vague memory most of us have of it is the attributes of Wednesday. (And btw, before any of you out there starts snickering about the poor kid born on Sunday, keep in mind gay back then did not have connotations of homosexuality....)
So, which day of the week were you born on? 
Posted by eirene83 at 08:48 PM on October 2, 2006.
Hmmm, both Ouran and Honey & Clover II have ended and there's nothing left for me to watch until my torrent for House s3 e3 finishes...
It was a pretty good ending for H & C II... Pretty much what everyone predicted would happen in the end; but still in a way or another, most of them got their issues resolved...
Most interesting line yet:
Is something that will disappear the same as something that never existed?
Great thinking material for me....
I wonder if there's going to be a season 2 for Ouran? It's been rumoured but nothing solid... If there isn't, I'm going to need to get the manga to see how things work out, like with Fruits Basket... But still, it was a good anime. No complaints. 
HP Fic of the Week
Posted by eirene83 at 09:22 PM on October 2, 2006 in HP.
Je Te Plumerais
By: Nimori
Summary:
A caged bird will sing, if only to conserve his spirit. And sing he does. Over and over and over again.
***
A Harry-Lucius fic! This was rather interesting... You can easily find the midi or mp3 file for Alouette. The tune is really familiar, but I can't quite place where I've heard it before... Can anyone help?
A rather simple, basic story... but quite captivating in a stark way.
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October 4, 2006
Well, finally!
Posted by eirene83 at 12:50 AM on October 4, 2006.
I finally got around to doing all the tiny little things and errands that I've been planning to do for the past 2 weeks but never, never got around to. Probably because I got really sick of just sitting around aimlessly, feeling numb.
So I went out and about to putting thought to action, instead of sitting around still and waiting for god knows what. That probably contributed to me ending up doing everything else as well, since I was already off my butt, out of the house, into the car.
T'was good to finally get rid of everything that's been hanging over me, and just get it all settled... Of course, that said, there's still some errands left I haven't done.... but only because it was in a different area, and I didn't feel like driving all the way there!
So yay... semi-motivated me! It'll be good to be doing something for a change! ^_^
October 6, 2006
The haze is back!
Posted by eirene83 at 02:48 PM on October 6, 2006.
Yesterday was a perfect gorgeous day: Sunshine, blue skies and fluffy white clouds. No complaints whatsoever...
Woke up today... and it's like smokers have descended en masse on the city. Cloudy, blurry vision and yellowish sunlight...
Oh joyy... I bid welcome to the irritated throat, itchy nose and the sneezes that I know will be along shortly... >_<
Tenchu (DS) - The challenge!
Posted by eirene83 at 03:14 PM on October 6, 2006 in .
Very unexpectedly, whilst talking to Shaun, I found out that he too was playing Tenchu: Dark Secret on his DS lite. Except with much, much slower progress...
Despite telling him everything that I've managed to figured out about Tenchu, he still hadn't manage to find a single scroll yet (Use 3 and more traps to get combo kills. 2 kills usually get you a bag of coins and some ingredient.) and still going really slowly... (42% village reconstruction... IN ONE WEEK! That's how much I got done in 2 days!)
To the extent, I was intrigued... so decided to challenge him. Starting from Friday morning (06/10/2006), for one week, challenge ending the next Friday morning (13/10/2006). We'll both start Tenchu on a new slot, and see how many scrolls and kill potraits we can collect and at what level we are at, next Friday.
LOL, of course, it'll be a friendly challenge... Meaning, no crazed, sleepless playing through the night... and we both mutually agreed that progress of village reconstruction won't be counted... (Since he has a tendency to do shuriken farming... that is, playing the same level over and over and collecting material to make shurikens...)
And so, the challenge begins!
Muakakakakakaka!!!!!
October 7, 2006
Lee Jun Ki
Posted by eirene83 at 03:06 PM on October 7, 2006 in Library.
*dreamy eyes*
He's so pretty...
Okay, so maybe he puts on more make-up than I do and his looks are quite androgynous... but still... so pretttyyy....
I like!!
October 10, 2006
Eldest
Posted by eirene83 at 01:08 AM on October 10, 2006.
Hmmm, I must be quite desperate for reading material...
I passed by a bookstore earlier and it was offering Eldest for RM25... which I thought was quite a bargain. So I bought it. And just finished reading it.
Despite the fact that it's book 2 in the series... and I've never read book 1 (Eragon) before... and have no inkling what is it all about. Okay, well, scratch that, after Eldest, I do know what is it all about... but still... I think I would prefer reading Eragon before watching the movie this December...
Hmmm, I wonder if any place is having a discount on Eragon...
La Camisa Negra
Posted by eirene83 at 01:18 AM on October 10, 2006 in Music - Songs & Lyrics.
Tengo la camisa negra
hoy mi amor esta de luto
Hoy tengo en el alma una pena
y es por culpa de tu embrujo
Hoy sé que tú ya no me quieres
y eso es lo que más me hiere
que tengo la camisa negra
y una pena que me duele
mal parece que solo me quedé
y fue pura todita tu mentira
que maldita mala suerte la mía
que aquel día te encontré
por beber del veneno malevo de tu amor
yo quedé moribundo y lleno de dolor
respiré de ese humo amargo de tu adiós
y desde que tú te fuiste yo solo tengo…
tengo la camisa negra
porque negra tengo el alma
yo por ti perdí la calma
y casi pierdo hasta mi cama
cama cama caman baby
te digo con disimulo
que tengo la camisa negra
y debajo tengo el difunto
tengo la camisa negra
ya tu amor no me interesa
lo que ayer me supo a gloria
hoy me sabe a pura
miércoles por la tarde y tú que no llegas
ni siquiera muestras señas
y yo con la camisa negra
y tus maletas en la puerta
mal parece que solo me quedé
y fue pura todita tu mentira
que maldita mala suerte la mía
que aquel día te encontré
por beber del veneno malevo de tu amor
yo quedé moribundo y lleno de dolor
respiré de ese humo amargo de tu adiós
y desde que tú te fuiste yo solo tengo…
tengo la camisa negra
porque negra tengo el alma
yo por ti perdí la calma
y casi pierdo hasta mi cama
cama cama caman baby
te digo con disimulo
que tengo la camisa negra
y debajo tengo el difunto
tengo la camisa negra
porque negra tengo el alma
yo por ti perdí la calma
y casi pierdo hasta mi cama
cama cama caman baby
te digo con disimulo
que tengo la camisa negra
y debajo tengo el difunto
I have a black shirt
for today my love is in mourning.
Today there is a pain in my soul
because of your spell.
Today I already know that you don't love me
which is the the thing that hurts the most.
I have a black shirt
and a pain that dwells within me.
It's a shame that I am alone
purely because you lied
and also because of my damned bad luck
on the day that I first met you.
From drinking the malevolent poison of your love
I remain near death and full of sorrow,
still breathing the bitter smoke of your goodbye,
and since you left, all I have is...
I have a black shirt
to match the darkness in my soul
I have completely lost my cool over you,
Lost it right up to my bed.
Come-a, come-a, come on, baby ***
I say to you that the black shirt
disguises the fact that underneath I'm a corpse.
I have a black shirt
and already your love doesn't interest me
Yesterday what I thought was pure happiness
Today I realize is pure **** ****
Wednesday afternoon you never showed up
and never gave me the least hint
so here I am with the black shirt
and your suitcases in the door
***
It's such a catchy song that just sticks in your mind ... It has the kind of tune that gets your foot tapping and head bobbing.
Funny then how the meaning of it is actually so bitter...
HP Fic of the Week
Posted by eirene83 at 01:19 AM on October 10, 2006 in HP.
Underwater Light
By: Maya
Summary:
Featuring an extremely depressed Harry, in a war-torn wizarding world, about to get the shock of his life when he discovers that Draco Malfoy is apparently slightly more important to him than he would have ever guessed.
Including a very odd friendship, lots of angst, suspicions, conflicted loyalties, clueless Ron, on-the-warpath Hermione and two very messed-up boys.
***
I read this story while playing the Goblet of Fire, and it was great to see the story go in an alternate direction. Truth be told, I had downloaded the files for this story, skimmed through it a bit, deleted it since I thought it was boring... only to find myself downloading it again, 2 weeks later... And I'm glad I did.
'Underwater Light' is not exactly a crack fiction, but it does have its extremely hilarious moments that had me cackling out loud and at other parts, entertained me with its dry humour. It also kinda makes me feel like trying blood-flavoured lollipops and marmalade and icing sugar sandwich...
Although it's a Harry-Draco fic, and features the interaction between them, it's not heavy on the urm... whatever elements it is that make gay-phobic people wince. Like I said, it focuses more on the really weird friendship between Harry and Draco.
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Old friends, old places
Posted by eirene83 at 01:21 AM on October 10, 2006.
It's always good to see friends again in old places... even if you would have rather the things that happened that allowed you see them hadn't quite happened the way it did... (If this doesn't make sense, sorry... I'm a little groggy and it's hard to get my meaning across...)
Anyhow, it was a slow 2 hours... Fun, but slow... It's the feeling where you know you've been there before, but the details are a little off. But I got to find out what happened to a really old friend. Old, like as in I've known him since I was in primary school... all the way to Uni.
Apparently said friend has come back from the UK, probably in the last couple of months... and according to Zhuo-Wei, who bumped into him goodness knows where, is going to join the police force. Frankly, a little surprising, but considering his sort of character, somehow very understandble.
So, all the best to you, Zee!
Internet gods...
Posted by eirene83 at 02:04 AM on October 10, 2006.
I think I must have angered the Internet gods somewhere...
If it's not the connection, then I can't into MSN... Or Tabulas... or Friendster pulls a disappearing act with my messages... OR, it's none of the above, but my Internet still wouldn't work...
>_<
How do you appease the Internet gods?
October 13, 2006
Dammit, no House
Posted by eirene83 at 02:35 AM on October 13, 2006.
My torrents are taking forever....
I've got nothing to watch!!
And dammit, House episode 5 is only due out on 31st Oct, if I'm not wrong... And even then, it'll take a day or so to get the torrent and another day or two before the download completes...
Le SIGH!!
Clip-scapade
Posted by eirene83 at 02:36 AM on October 13, 2006.
I was looking through some old photos (and a video) and I actually just realised how much longer my hair is now... compared to, oh say, back in May. I would say it's about a good 4 to 5 inches longer now. Totally amazing... That would mean it's an average of an inch a month... and here I was thinking it took 2 months(!!) per inch...
Actually, the realisation also came again today when I was out buying hair accessories... I love chopsticks and pins... Almost everytime I'm at some place selling hair accessories, I'm tempted to twist my hair into a chignon and put a chopstick through it. Of course, back then, my hair was either too short or too layered to actually stay in a chignon, so half would stay skewered whilst the other half slithered off... and whoever was with me would, very diplomatically, try not to laugh their heads off while pointing out that it looked a mess.
But today... I actually managed to successfully pin it up. Every time! Daanngg... Even though I knew that my hair was longer, I really didn't know it was that much longer... Woww....
I can go out and buy more hair accessories now!!!! :D
(Actually, I did... I now have 2 clips and 3 hair ties. That's enough... for today. )
Ps: Oh, and while I was out, I also managed to (finally) get my Nokia's LCD screen replaced... RM80... Well, painful but compared to the RM180 the Nokia outlet was asking for, it's not that bad a pinch...
October 14, 2006
Tenchu challenge- Result
Posted by eirene83 at 01:29 AM on October 14, 2006 in .
Well, it's been a week since the Tenchu challenge started and Shaun and I just checked up on each other's progress...
Apparently, we both reached 100% village reconstruction and completion on Tuesday... and by the time we finished the last level, we're both heartily sick of ghouls... Only ghouls...
He's got more kill potraits than me, since he somehow picked up a joke book scroll during one of the trials... but I've got more scrolls (but not the joke book one) than he does...
So altogether, we've decided to just call it a draw instead of crazily battling it out to max everything up.
And we've also agreed it's going to be a long, long time before the next challenge... Especially one involving a crazy, possessed princess who floats 3 feet off the ground thus rendering it near impossible to trip her!!!
Hehe, and now we both can go to sleeepp....
October 15, 2006
Look!
Posted by eirene83 at 03:55 PM on October 15, 2006 in .
I've got famous friends!!
Not...
Hehehe, it was just that while I was watching some Korean dramas that it struck me their looks really resembled some of my friends... so I decided to show the world and expose what my friends are really doing with their free time.
And well... they say that everyone out there has a doppelganger or a twin... Hrmmm, I'm starting to wonder how true that really is....
*cue X-Files theme...*
(OMGG... That was so passe!! Heehehe...)
Sheffield U...
Posted by eirene83 at 03:56 PM on October 15, 2006 in .
A year back, we were all joking about the decline in the Malaysian population in Sheffied after Sheffield Uni decided to stop twinning with Taylor's. Of course, there's always Sheffield Hallam (which twins with what? Mara? Or one of the local unis, anyway) but Hallam doesn't really count, since it's like right at the edge of Sheffield, near the train station.
Now, I just heard that Sheffield is going to twin with Segi College(?) for their engineering courses... so looks like the geeky Malaysian population will still be maintained over there...
AND... Taylor's Law is now doing a 2+2 twinning with Queensland Uni now... One year extra, since Aussie Law takes 2 years... Annddd, on top of that!! Queensland Uni will still be accepted for CLP.... What the!! What happened to Aussie Law being incompatible with Malaysian Law??
Why do all these changes come about wayyyy after I graduate??? >_<
HP Fic of the Week
Posted by eirene83 at 04:11 PM on October 15, 2006 in HP.
Pink
By: AbstractConcept
Summary:
Harry is determined to learn the Animagus Transformation, and the results are... unexpected, to put it mildly. ***
This is a hilarious Snape-Harry (Snarry) fic... It's a short, one-off piece, compared to the novel-length type fics I've been recommending before. I know it's a difficult idea for some to get around... Snape and Harry relationship, but this is done really cutely... And somehow, I couldn't help but laugh reading it... Snape is Snape... yet he's rather... endearing...
Oh, and be sure to read the sequel to it: Teacher's Pet where Severus finds himself stuck with Harry, who refuses to.... or can't... relinquish his Animagus form.
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October 17, 2006
Posted by eirene83 at 12:09 AM on October 17, 2006.
My office's up on the 5th floor and it overlooks a bus stand. During peak hours, I can hear cars sounding the horn every few minutes or so, when some moronic KL driver is slightly too slow at the lights, or is blocking the entire road...
Twas a slightly awkward first day, sitting around, since no one knew what to do with me... And I'm a little isolated too, since they haven't got a proper place for me yet...
But still, it's bearable... and after all, it's just the first day. Things should be better later on... Plus I've got nice colleagues.
Blisters
Posted by eirene83 at 12:34 AM on October 17, 2006.
Getting blisters is just so not cool... I mean, it freaking hurts, it usually takes forever to go away (and in the meantime, you try not to aggravate it) and even then, there's faint scarring...
Not to mention, it is just so not sexy... As Dr House said, "That is not a sexy big toe... " (Well, okay fine, he was talking about scurvy and all... but still, it's very applicable to blisters too!) I mean, can you imagine SJP wearing her Manolo's with blisters? Doesn't go, does it? Like I said, blisters are really unsexy... And even if you can hide it (Is there anything on the market, like toe concealer? Hehehe), you'll probably limp from the pain...
Sigh... Blisters... Not sexy, not fun, and I already so know that it's going to be around for a long time... No thanks to my court shoes...
October 19, 2006
Rain, rain, go away...
Posted by eirene83 at 11:57 PM on October 19, 2006.
Rain can be so deceiving...
From the top, it doesn't ever look like it's raining heavily, and the sound's muted. Then you get down to the ground floor and realise it's actually pouring quite a bit...
The only indication you have of how heavily it actually is raining, is to try and look at the condition of the roads... Or peer and squint until you can see the rain coming down.. Of course, you could also look at the pedestrians and judge how bad it is by how fast they're running across the roads...
Still, it's a nice walk, even if I did get a bit soaked... wearing a white shirt...
Hazy hazy
Posted by eirene83 at 11:59 PM on October 19, 2006.
What a beautiful day it was today! Or well, the closest it can get to being a beautiful day with the haze progressively getting worse.
The sunshine's all tinted yellow in the day, and frankly, being assaulted by bus fumes every time I walk out of the office is more than enough secondary smoke for me, on top of having to deal with the haze. My eyes are killing me!! It keeps itching and somehow, I think my eyedrops are contributing to the problem. My right eye starts itching the second the drop lands on my eyeball... Not before... and only my right eye... Bleks. I think I need another brand of drops other than EyeMo.
Anyway, I just barely missed being rained upon today. It started pouring within seconds of my reaching shelter. Me very happy about that since I don't particularly enjoy having to sit around in rain-drenched clothes in air-conditioned areas waiting to go home. Walking home in the rain is another matter entirely though.
October 21, 2006
KL Sentral
Posted by eirene83 at 05:42 PM on October 21, 2006.
For a brief second today, I was wondering why there were so many travellers in KL Sentral... and why were they all dressed in baju Melayus et al...
Then I remembered... It's Friday, and the start of a really long weekend... Everyone was heading back for their kampung and celebrations. It was quite fascinating to see. Every bus leaving KL Sentral was packed!! Rapid KLs, Aerobuses, AirAsia buses... Man, even the staircase down was packed.
And well, what with the amount of people and cars... even the road out of KL Sentral was jammed. Unsurprisingly.
It took us 20 minutes just to get out and finally enter Brickfields.
Sloganize your name!
Posted by eirene83 at 06:30 PM on October 21, 2006 in Fun stuff.
Haha, I got really bored so I went through some of my Friendster Bulletins and found this!
Turn your name into a slogan!
I did it a couple of times, and it generates something different each time.
These were from the first few tries:
Lol... Talk about self-advertisement!
And my personal favourite:
Hahaha, expensive, works wonders... and the one thing you should give people?? Heheh, love this!!
October 24, 2006
Korean Drama
Posted by eirene83 at 01:06 PM on October 24, 2006.
I remember watching a bit of this Korean drama way back sometime in 2003, and really like the theme song used. Of course, Korean dramas were just starting out so it was quite difficult to get the OST... But somehow I managed to find a link to some site where I could hear a version of that particular theme song...
I didn't bookmark the link, but instead just emailed it to myself, figuring that that was the safest method of always having it around... Unfortunately, towards my exams time, I got too busy to keep logging in to my email account... and when I finally remembered, it was past 3 months and all mails stored in the account had been deleted.
Sigh...
And the only thing I can remember about it was that it was a really great song (which I could be wrong, since that's what memories tend to do: appear to be so much better than what it really was back then). I can't remember the name of the drama, recognise the actors, or even remember how the tune went...
Sigh...
And so far, no luck in going through all the synopsis of Korean dramas... (At least, I still vaguely remember the plot... Otherwise, I might as well just give up...)
Maybe I should expand my search to include Japanese dramas as well, just in case my memory is wrong...
Hand writing
Posted by eirene83 at 01:06 PM on October 24, 2006.
Dammnn... I know people always joke about how doctors have bad handwriting... but do lawyers??
I've come acrossed a few notes written by the big boss... and dammit, it's all one huge illegible scrawl! And it's not just him. I had to type up a statement the other day by one of the partners, and although some parts were pretty obvious, I had to make a stab at guessing the other words based on the sentence.
And well... my dad has the worst hand-writing I have ever, ever seen. He's exactly like my lecturer back in Brickfields... Sometimes, they can even't read their own writing... And well honestly? My hand-writing has never been called graceful or elegant before...
So is it not just doctors who are infamous for their writing, but lawyers as well?
HP Fic of the Week
Posted by eirene83 at 01:09 PM on October 24, 2006 in HP.
The Park Bench
By: Debbie
Summary:
A Harry-Draco fic, told from an outside perspective. ***
I have a love-hate feeling for this fic. The first time I read it, it was nice, sweet... but a bit painful. A one-off fic, quite short... Very clean (for gay-phobics) and everything's shown on surface level.
Very well-written in its simplicity. But very bittersweet, and everytime I reread it, it just feels more painful than before. The sort of pain that makes you feel bitter about life and (maybe, depending on how sentimental a person you are) make your eyes fill with tears.
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My mom
Posted by eirene83 at 01:09 PM on October 24, 2006 in .
Apparently my mom thinks her daughter is extremely anti-social and bad-tempered and slams things around when I'm angry... or so I found out today... whereas she thinks that my brother, although even worse-tempered, tends to get along with everybody.
I dunno... I guess I can't really argue that she does have a point there. I'm not the type to go all out and be friendly with all and sundry and manage to have a nice little chat. (For that matter, I never thought my brother would be considered to be the people person either, since I personally think that he's not really a person who'll get along with everyone... I always thought he was like me: We'll get along with you, but we're not going to be too bothered whichever way...) And well, I do slam things around when I'm angry and raise my voice as well... as compared to my mom, who just ignores people when she's angry, as she said.
But then... even though I am anti-social and a loud, angry person... I've always thought that I can also be sociable... I can talk to people around me, and generally hold a proper conversation without resorting to discussing topics like the weather et al. And I've always thought that people tend to feel comfortable being around me, quite quickly after just meeting me...
And I know that I can go cold when angry as well... There's a part of me who'll let the whole world know when I'm angry and glare and scowl at everyone... But there's also the me who'll hold her head up high and be politely cutting and hurtful when angry...
I don't know... Maybe my mom sees more of one side of me, which is the anti-social, bad-tempered person, than the other me, who's sociable and capable of going into cold anger. Or maybe that other side of me is all just in my imagination and I AM an anti-social, angry person...
People closest to me, or have known me for a long time and have actually seen that side of me... some help here? Am I really as simple as my mom thinks? Or are there a lot of sides to me?
October 25, 2006
Autograph book
Posted by eirene83 at 03:45 AM on October 25, 2006 in Personal.
I was going through my autograph book earlier tonight... (yes, I kept one... but only during my A-Levels' days...) and flipping through the pages, I wondered what happened to everyone who wrote in it.
There were the short, obligatory ones from people I knew but wasn't particularly close to... There were the longer, slightly more personal ones from the closer friends I had... There was even one or two from unexpected people whom I apparently made an impression on, without knowing... And there was a lot, a lot of artwork... Scribbles, sketches, stickers, cards...
There were notes from my lecturers and urges to work hard. Lines from good friends to keep in touch and to always be happy... Scribbles from people whom I thrust the book to and had no idea what to write...
Seniors, juniors, classmates, A-Levels' staff... even one from a girl who worked in the AYA cafe whom I got know during my frequent hot chocolate stops there...
It made me miss my college days... Miss all the people who had truly brightened up my life, who made their own impression on me. Who made an impact on my life... I miss them all, regardless of how close we really were... because they were there. They were a part of my college life...
I wish I could go back and relive it.
October 26, 2006
Posted by eirene83 at 01:03 AM on October 26, 2006.
Hmm greeat.... My mouse is semi-working now... I thought it was said you could use an optical mouse on any surface? So why am I having so much trouble with mine, to the extent it's currently on a surface of felt, to work properly?
And my connection is so slow!!! And why does MSN always have trouble signing me in??? Is the server really that slow or something???
GRRRRR!!!!
Scary
Posted by eirene83 at 01:17 AM on October 26, 2006 in Fun stuff.
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
October 28, 2006
Love
Posted by eirene83 at 12:35 AM on October 28, 2006 in Thoughts as a favorite post.
Love is just plain confusing.
What could be utterly right in one situation, could turn out to be the worst decision in another context. There's no guide, no instructions, no helpful hints... A decision that was good for your best friend, will usually not produce the same results for you. Doing the illogical, unexpected thing may have a good outcome for you, but could be the last straw for another.
(Actually, I blame my current state of mind on those dramas my mom keeps watching. Almost every time I glance at the screen, it seems to be right smack in the middle of a situation that bothers me)
(Situation from The Hospital)
If you did something that you felt betrayed the one you loved... would you confess? Or is it better to push the person away, only to have them come back later down the line, wanting an answer? Because if the person really loves you, they would want an answer, wouldn't they? How would you explain why you keep pushing them away? And say you tell the truth... imagine the pain they would feel. They kept a torch for you for so long, and suddenly you reveal this sort of betrayal...
And also... by creating this sort of situation, wouldn't you be narrowing things down to either, they walk away in disgust... or throw everything to the winds, damn it all, and come after you?
And before I get flamed again or anything, please... I'm just writing out what I think okay... All scenarios depicted are NOT based on real life... Look at it as I'm thinking online...
(Situation from The Beginning)
Say you're the one holding a torch for someone else, you keep doing everything for their sake (but never told them) and you've finally confess your feelings to them, only for them to say that they only think of you as a friend. Do you want to push them to give you a chance? To let things grow? Or accept that it's a one-sided thing? I mean, it's not impossible... Feelings can change, grow... But I know it's hard to convince someone to give you a chance, when at that very moment (and before), they've just never seen you in that light.
What if they found out about things you did for them (maybe through a well-meaning mutual friend)? Wouldn't that feel like they only agreed to be with you, because they felt grateful? Or they felt bad you did so much for them yet treated you so coldly? Here you are, genuinely loving them... and wondering if they were only with you out of gratitude... or a sense of obligation...
Or say you like someone... who likes another person, except that other person just rejected the person you like. Said person comes to you, saying they've just been rejected but they've finally realised that there was something, someone wonderful right beside them all along... and ask if you would be willing to accept them. Though, of course, they would need time to forget previous person. Isn't that a little like they're going for something that's right in front of them that they know is for certain, instead of, I dunno... chasing for something that is uncertain, that they might think make them happier?
What if you had been encouraging and urging them to go after the other person (before other person rejected said one you like) and nobly, decently doing the 'right thing'? Sometimes, it really does work like reverse psychology. Sometimes, the more you encourage them, the more they might feel something towards you... (Okay, but fine, Ting Li is a genuinely a noble, sweet, selfless person... But I'm just hypothesizing here.)
UGH! Love is a damned confusing thing... but it can be so beautiful... Even the pain you feel in love has a sharper edge that for a brief second, makes you feel as though it's pleasure...
Lovesick.
Heartsick.
That pain we feel sometimes is enough to leech all life out from you.
Penpal
Posted by eirene83 at 12:57 AM on October 28, 2006.
I've got a penpal!!
Linda, also from Tabulas, in US!
I was blog-trawling when I came across her list of 100 things she wanted to do in 1000 days, and among them (#34, to be precise) was to get a penpal in another country to write to. And thus, I sent a letter (I think about a month back?) and behold:
This is just utterly so cool! Am really excited about it, even though I know some people think it's nutters to be snail-mailing someone and all, when we can just surf over to each other's blog to check what's going on. I've had penpals on and off since I was like, 10 years old? (Hehe, and I still count my dear darling sis, Mae, as one of them... though it's been ages since we last exchanged ink.) and frankly, nothing beats getting a letter in the post. It's just different.
And I think her mission of trying to do those 100 things really incredible. I would love to plan one for myself; maybe 100 things I want to do in my life at least once, if only just to prove I can do them... but unfortunately, I'm not really creative and it's going to be really hard trying to think of 100 things... and also, I think that I've done some of those things already...
Like... getting a tattoo (During my brother's graduation, 2001). And going river-rafting (This summer in KK). Build a snowman (did that with Shaun up in Mt. Buller) and make a snow angel (last heavy snowfall in Sheffield, winter '05)...
Things that I would want to do... Maybe take up my collegue's invitation to go up Everest... Bungee-jump/sky-dive, to conquer my terror of heights. Visit the 7 wonders of the modern, ancient and natural world... Oh, maybe try out Speed Dating, for the heck of it... Master the tango.
And that's like a grand total of... 9 things. Oh well... maybe one day in the future...
Fruits Basket v23?
Posted by eirene83 at 12:59 AM on October 28, 2006 in Thoughts.
Spectrum Nexus has scanlations of Fruits Basket up to volume 21, up on a rotating basis. I always thought that volume 22 would be the last volume, since based on reading the chapter translations, it seemed like the story was all wrapped-up and it was generally agreed that v22 was the end.
However, as it would seems, Fruits Basket doesn't end at v22, and it's still an ongoing project. I'm not complaining; after all, even though all the questions were finally answered and all the loose ends tied up, it was still a little sad to see the story end there. I wonder what it'll be about. I'm already content, since the plot ended the way I hoped it would... what was left was just wondering how everyone will be doing after the whole drama and crisis thing...
It's so sweet reading v21! The climax has finally arrived and slowly, everything's just falling into place. Everyone's finally revealing all the secrets and fears. One of the strongest lines ever from Tohru:
Mother saying such a thing like, "I won't forgive you!"... I can't believe it... But if she really said that...Then I have to be against her...!! Because I just love Kyo!
Wheee!!! Finally! Confession time! Sorry to all the Yuki-Tohru supporters out there... but I just feel that Kyo's the best one for Tohru and she for him! All those little things that they've done for each other...
As Yuki said, "You've been protecting her! She was happy and content. They may be small things, but you were beside her; made her smiling and laughing!"
All those things that made her happy... it just wouldn't have been the same if it was Yuki. There were some things that truly only Kyo could do. The cooking for her when she was sick... all those times he listened to her while she cried...
Sometimes... it's those little things that count. Even if it seems stupid to you, it may be really important to the person; just as how those little things that other person does for you are important to you. Those little things that are capable of brightening up a person's day and bring a smile to their faces...
And it's finally out! After all those moments when you could clearly see how they felt for each other! (The bit in the play when Tohru finally realised her feelings... That was the best!) All the little encounters, like at the beach, just cooking together or talking... All the small things have finally come to fruition!
October 30, 2006
Company lunch.
Posted by eirene83 at 12:05 AM on October 30, 2006.
Boss took us all out for lunch today... Us being all the legal clerks, assistants and lawyers...
It's a good thing that it's still relatively the festive season and there's not many clients, since the entire office was empty for a good hour and a half. We were speculating as to why Boss was so generous today and decided that probably a client had dropped by and paid off their fees.
Royal Selangor... It was a really good lunch, but quiet since most of us didn't know what to say. And also because we were the only customers there today.
But yummm... Dishes were good! Very recommended...
Again and again...
Posted by eirene83 at 12:10 AM on October 30, 2006 in Music - Songs & Lyrics.
Again and Again - Jewel
Listen dear
I need you to hear.
I cannot disappear
I've tried again and again and again.
I know we said
That we'd give up
You said we'd had enough
Again and again and again.
But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine
All mine... (*)
And if you will, I will
Try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show us the way
'Cause love is here to stay
Just look me in the eye
This is do or die
And I will stay in love
'Till you say enough
There is no giving in
There is no giving up in love. (**)
Walk down the street
Stare at lots of things
The fast and steady streams
Again and again and again.
Do what I should
Try to stay busy
Your face is all I see
Again and again and again.
Repeat (*) and (**)
Like a movie I once saw
In the darkness I recall
Feeling the beauty and the pain
And when you call my name
Say you feel the same.
Repeat (*) and (**)
In love, in love
We're in love
I cannot disappear...
I've tried again and again and again...
I love this bit...
But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine
All mine...
HP Fic of the Week
Posted by eirene83 at 12:12 AM on October 30, 2006 in HP.
It All Started at the Bookstore
By: Debbie
Summary:
Another lovely fic by Debbie; where Harry's day turned out rather differently than he had expected. ***
This is such a cute fic based on that typical scenario of two people meeting in a bookstore and just hitting it off. Of course, it felt a little rushed; the hitting it off part... but otherwise, it's really a sweet fic.
Hehehe, short and sweet, and really... It all really did start at the bookstore... technically.
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Posted by eirene83 at 12:52 AM on October 30, 2006.
I want a hug.
I need a hug.
I'm tired; I ache all over; my feet are tired and my arms hurt to straighten them.
Parcel
Posted by eirene83 at 12:52 AM on October 30, 2006.
I got a parcel today...
I was staring it blankly for quite a while... (Blame it on the after-work buzz I always feel inside my head.) Cause, see... the box is really familiar... I've received so many parcels packaged in that colour and usually that size, that I know it could only have been from one person...
And here's where my brain took a mental trip... Coz... as far as I lucidly, soberly remember... Shaun left Australia and has been back in Malaysia since the 19th morning. Parcels usually take 9 to 10 days to arrive. Counting backwards... it really did look like the parcel was sent from Australia... when Shaun was most definitely in Malaysia. (I know most definitely, because I called his PJ house at 7.30am on the 20th...)
My parents said that maybe he posted it just before he left... but since he was already coming back, wouldn't it have made more sense for him to just bring it back with him?
(But then again, I forget... This is Shaun we're talking about. The guy who went through a lot of hassle in customs trying to bring into Australia a wooden bangle for Steffi to send it back to Malaysia for her... Instead of leaving it with his family in Malaysia... since she was supposed to go over and collect some comics, anyway...)
Then I figured out why...
Looks like the parcel took a long Raya break as well!
